Wednesday, October 28, 2020
Home Sports South Africa lost another World Cup Semifinal, but this time I feel emotionally choked

South Africa lost another World Cup Semifinal, but this time I feel emotionally choked

Not all emotions can be tracked with logical formulations. Not all sentiments can be argued with blatant facts. I keep empty spaces within my real existence so that I can fill those voids with some magical innocence. Anticipation of illogical magical moments illuminates many dark realities of my life.

With time and age, my definition of miracles has changed a lot. Once, as a 6-year-old kid, I went to a magic show in which the magician spelled abra-ka-dabra and made a coin disappear in front of us. The magician started his new act after applauses, but I remained stuck in the awe of that particular act for many days. It was probably the first miracle which I witnessed in front of my eyes with all my consciousness. For next many weeks, I kept imitating those words with coins and matchboxes in my fists – by changing body postures and accents, but those words never worked.

As I grew old, I lived a good amount of time in the magical worlds of DuckTales and TaleSpin. I was so addicted to that One-Hour Disney combo show that apart from finishing my boring homework, I used to grudgingly finish one glass of milk and a bowl of green vegetables every morning, just to remind my mom that I am following the pact. That one hour of the show was so magical that I often forgot to realize whether I am a part of Uncle Scrooge family or I am someone residing in the same island in which Baloo lives. I, along with my brother, used to collect springs from old retractable pens, scrap electric wires, battery from torches, magnets, and jumble them with lenses in a hope that we will create some gadgets. We certainly received many scolding and punishments, but we could never create any time machine, electric boomerang or flying saucers.

The definition of miracle kept changing from school to college, from college to job, and from first job to next jobs. There was one phase of my life, when I wanted my school to magically win the zonal football trophy, and there was another phase, when I wanted my college theatre plays to magically mesmerize all the audience. Once, I considered disappearing of coin as a magic, and at another point of time in my life, a cup of tea with my favourite books, good music and good location was magical.

These days, when I return from my office, I sleep with lots of political, social and personal mumbo jumbo. Between many stressed logical and illogical debates, sometimes I search for nothingness and sometimes I search for small magical moments. When South Africa was playing against New Zealand, I wanted South Africa to win it. There was no logical reasoning behind that desire. I stopped watching cricket with passion long time back. However, I had been listening and reading about AB de Villiers for some days. During the last over, I wanted some magic to happen with South Africa so that they win. I recalled how bad I felt for Allan Donald when South Africa lost in the 1999 World Cup. No magic happened. I saw AB de Villiers, Steyn, Morkel and other South Africans breaking in tears. I felt very upset.

Somewhere in my heart, I knew that the magician tricked us; there was no magic. Somewhere in my heart, I knew that Baloo and Uncle Scrooge are unreal. Somewhere in my heart, I knew that a team with a better game wins. I still keep empty spaces for magic in my life.

  Support Us  

Whether NDTV or 'The Wire', they never have to worry about funds. In name of saving democracy, they get money from various sources. We need your support to fight them. Please contribute whatever you can afford

Rahul Raj
Poet. Engineer. Story Teller. Social Media Observer. Started Bhak Sala on facebook

Related Articles

Trending now

Watch: Moment when firing broke out and an eyewitness who narrates exactly what happened

The horrific violence that broke out during Durga Visarjan in Munger, Bihar last night has left people wondering as to what transpired that led to the death of an 18-year old boy and left many injured

ABP quotes uncle of murderer Tauseef to whitewash the religious angle in the heinous murder of Nikita Tomar

Javed Ahmed out rightly denied any angle of religious conversion in the Nikita Tomar murder and said that he respected all religions.

Hansa Research says it has no business dealings with Republic TV, Mumbai Police’s leak to Economic Times falls flat

Hansa Research has categorically denied claims made by Mumbai Police which were quoted in a report in The Economic Times.

Bollywood: Actress Malvi Malhotra stabbed for rejecting marriage proposal of Facebook friend

Malvi Malhotra was returning home from a coffee shop when the accused said that he wanted to speak to her

India-US 2+2 talks: Geo-spatial defence pact signed, US extends its support to India amidst border aggression from China

The BECA pact will arm India with sensitive satellite and sensor data and enable it to keep a closer watch on the Chinese warships in the Indian Ocean.

Recently Popular

Editors Guild issues a shameful statement tacitly condoning witch-hunt against Republic TV and Arnab Goswami by Mumbai Police: Details

After almost two weeks of the witch-hunt launched by Mumbai Police against Republic TV and Arnab Goswami, the Editors Guild has finally issued a statement

Faridabad: A month after college student Nikita files molestation complaint against Taufeeq, he shoots her dead

As per reports, the accused initially wanted to abduct the victim but killed her when she resisted him.

Nikita Tomar murder: Taufeeq alias Sajid introduced himself as Rahul, was pressurising her to embrace Islam

On Monday, 21-year-old Nikita Tomar was shot to death in broad daylight outside the Aggarwal college in Ballabgarh, Faridabad

YouTuber Lakshay Chaudhary levels serious allegations of fraud against Gaurav Wasan of Swad Official whose video on ‘Baba ka Dhaba’ had gone viral

Gaurav Wasan of Swad Official had uploaded a video about the financial difficulties faced by the elderly couple of 'Baba ka Dhaba'.

18-year-old dead as police open fire at Durga Puja Visarjan procession in Munger, Bihar: Here is everything you need to know

An 18-year-old youth has reportedly been killed and several others injured in the firing that took place on the intervening night of Monday and Tuesday in Munger, Bihar

Kerala: Photographer Dia John depicts Hindu deity as smoking weed, deletes picture after outrage

Kochi-based Mukkootil Bhagavathy temple had filed a complaint against Dia John for hurting Hindu religious sentiments
- Advertisement -

Watch: Moment when firing broke out and an eyewitness who narrates exactly what happened

The horrific violence that broke out during Durga Visarjan in Munger, Bihar last night has left people wondering as to what transpired that led to the death of an 18-year old boy and left many injured

ABP quotes uncle of murderer Tauseef to whitewash the religious angle in the heinous murder of Nikita Tomar

Javed Ahmed out rightly denied any angle of religious conversion in the Nikita Tomar murder and said that he respected all religions.

Karan Johar’s Dharma Productions receives show cause notice for dumping garbage, bio-medical waste used during a film shoot in Goa on roadside

Goan activists threatened of taking Dharma Productions and Karan johar to court for breaking the laws of the land.

Weeks after being targeted by opposition parties and media for allegedly favouring BJP, Ankhi Das quits Facebook

Ankhi Das was mired in controversy lately after a WSJ article accused Facebook India of showing bias towards BJP.

Nikita Tomar murder: Main accused Tauseef belongs to a family of influential Congress politicians from Nuh in Haryana

The prime accused Tauseef's grandfather, uncles and cousin brothers are all infuential Congress politicians from Haryana's Nuh

While Munger video shows devotees protecting Maa Durga’s Murti in silence as the police unleashed blows, SP claims they shot their own

Violence erupted in Bihar’s Munger as police resorted to brute force against devotees participating in Durga Visarjan.

Waqar Zaka of Pakistani Roadies fame calls for ‘Digital Jihad’ against President of France

Waqar Zaka of Pakistani Roadies fame called for Digital Jihad against French President Emmanuel Macron.

‘Unacceptable’, ‘highway robbery’: Opposition suffers meltdown after central government makes way for any Indian to buy land in J&K

Following the passage of the new land law, opposition parties, as expected, are up in arms against the central government.

Pakistan’s National Assembly passes resolution to bring back its envoy from France, but there’s a catch

Currently, there is no Pakistani envoy in France as the last envoy was transferred to China three months back. The post has been lying vacant since then.

Connect with us

245,563FansLike
469,673FollowersFollow
19,400SubscribersSubscribe